I f***ed up in my 40’s 2012 -2022

looking back between the years of 2012 - 2022 during my 40's going into my 50's, I made some of the greatest mistakes of my life. I did not priortize my "True" blessing from God and that was my family. I committed financial suicide many times as well, focused on my music, videos, clothes, ect. ect. Well, at age 51 at the present time of this post, Im dealing with the consequenses.